In all my days, I have always responded to stimuli.
Today I want to be different.
First, I do not want to respond to stimuli.
I want to rest.
- Akorede
Akorede - Stimuli and I
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Monday, April 9, 2018
Continuity
A thing whence there was none.
Boom.
New.
I was writing a book but from the lines above you can see why I stopped writing. With a book's length of words written, I still feel like the story is not properly written. The book is about how in a twisted way, I think zero is equal to infinity.
The plan is to sneak pure mathematics, philosophy, theology and basic human ignorance to prove that zero is equal to infinity.
This book was practically writing itself at the beginning, 6 years later I'm here writing this post.
Boom.
New.
I was writing a book but from the lines above you can see why I stopped writing. With a book's length of words written, I still feel like the story is not properly written. The book is about how in a twisted way, I think zero is equal to infinity.
Some friends from childhood meet over a long weekend at the main character's house in Banana Island. The main character's name is Akorede. He records the events of the weekend.
The plan is to sneak pure mathematics, philosophy, theology and basic human ignorance to prove that zero is equal to infinity.
This book was practically writing itself at the beginning, 6 years later I'm here writing this post.
Wednesday, February 18, 2015
Valentine's Day: Her Own Side Of The Story
I am a romantic.
It doesn’t always show, and sometimes that’s intentional, but I can’t deny that I am a
hopeless romantic.
Needles to say, Valentines Day is one of my favorite days of the year. Not because of the
gifts, or the chocolate or corny movies, I love the fact that you can feel the love in the air,
that people stop and think of how to make their partner feel special, the anticipation of
how magical an ordinary day can become, the chance to just reflect on the awesomeness
that is your relationship, or how to make it more awesome than it currently is.
So when my boyfriend asked me around September last year what “celebrations” I expect
him to mark, I did not hesitate to say Valentines Day. That I believe was the beginning of
my downfall regarding Valentine's Day.
Since September, this girl had been looking forward to February 14th because she
expected that since she had made it clear that it’s a big deal to her that it was bound to be
the kind of day that only Disney could come up with…and my boyfriend of course. The
fact that I had to work and get my hair done on that day couldn’t get me down; we had
the whole evening to be romantic and all.
Come midnight, I present him with a card and a smile and say happy Valentines Day! He
looked at me funny, smiled then said “happy valentines day”…hmm, well it’s early, I tell
myself, I had to go sleep because of work so no matter. After work, I got home, washed
my hair then went out to get my hair done. Now ladies, allow me to say that I spent quite
a bit of money on the hair (*cough* Peruvian virgin hair grade 7A *cough*) and I
thought it looked nice. I walk in and he comes over to give me a hug and pauses with this
stank look on his face looking at my hair then he says, “umm is this space meant to be
there?” The space here being a part that had moved the wrong way because I wore and
took off my hood, hat head anyone? That was the beginning of his downfall that day.
Still waiting for the magic? Yeah, so was I. Anyway, I had suggested we go see a movie
and he had readily agreed, so we went and that was nice, it was an awesome movie and
we exchanged cutesy glances and stuff at the theatre and even shared a little kiss. Now
the movie started at about 10pm so my hopes of magic had gone down to 0 but I decided
to still have a good night.
Bedtime came and this girl could just not let it go. The conversation started with "What
exactly do you celebrate?" He thought for a second and said "I celebrate success", I said
"no I mean a certain time/date in the calendar,” he realized I was talking
about Valentine's day so he asked if I wasn’t pleased with how the day went, I said I
wished we celebrated it.
He asked what I expected, and as any woman can tell you, I did not know exactly what I
wanted, I just knew I didn’t get it. So I said, “I dunno, a card, a nice note, something” and
being emotional and all, I proceeded to say our whole relationship could do with a little
more romance…yeah I messed up.
After an uncomfortable and longish discussion, I came to realize that my boyfriend and I
have VERY different definitions of romance, his being more of the I love to take care of
you, I sit in very uncomfortable positions for extended periods of time so you can cuddle
with me romance and mine being the occasional cute card or hand written note, and, dare
I say it, flowers!
My boyfriend being the amazing man that he is, has promised to make every valentines
day from here on out, not like the one that just passed, and I have promised to appreciate
the little things a little more.
Long live Valentines Day!
It doesn’t always show, and sometimes that’s intentional, but I can’t deny that I am a
hopeless romantic.
Needles to say, Valentines Day is one of my favorite days of the year. Not because of the
gifts, or the chocolate or corny movies, I love the fact that you can feel the love in the air,
that people stop and think of how to make their partner feel special, the anticipation of
how magical an ordinary day can become, the chance to just reflect on the awesomeness
that is your relationship, or how to make it more awesome than it currently is.
So when my boyfriend asked me around September last year what “celebrations” I expect
him to mark, I did not hesitate to say Valentines Day. That I believe was the beginning of
my downfall regarding Valentine's Day.
Since September, this girl had been looking forward to February 14th because she
expected that since she had made it clear that it’s a big deal to her that it was bound to be
the kind of day that only Disney could come up with…and my boyfriend of course. The
fact that I had to work and get my hair done on that day couldn’t get me down; we had
the whole evening to be romantic and all.
Come midnight, I present him with a card and a smile and say happy Valentines Day! He
looked at me funny, smiled then said “happy valentines day”…hmm, well it’s early, I tell
myself, I had to go sleep because of work so no matter. After work, I got home, washed
my hair then went out to get my hair done. Now ladies, allow me to say that I spent quite
a bit of money on the hair (*cough* Peruvian virgin hair grade 7A *cough*) and I
thought it looked nice. I walk in and he comes over to give me a hug and pauses with this
stank look on his face looking at my hair then he says, “umm is this space meant to be
there?” The space here being a part that had moved the wrong way because I wore and
took off my hood, hat head anyone? That was the beginning of his downfall that day.
Still waiting for the magic? Yeah, so was I. Anyway, I had suggested we go see a movie
and he had readily agreed, so we went and that was nice, it was an awesome movie and
we exchanged cutesy glances and stuff at the theatre and even shared a little kiss. Now
the movie started at about 10pm so my hopes of magic had gone down to 0 but I decided
to still have a good night.
Bedtime came and this girl could just not let it go. The conversation started with "What
exactly do you celebrate?" He thought for a second and said "I celebrate success", I said
"no I mean a certain time/date in the calendar,” he realized I was talking
about Valentine's day so he asked if I wasn’t pleased with how the day went, I said I
wished we celebrated it.
He asked what I expected, and as any woman can tell you, I did not know exactly what I
wanted, I just knew I didn’t get it. So I said, “I dunno, a card, a nice note, something” and
being emotional and all, I proceeded to say our whole relationship could do with a little
more romance…yeah I messed up.
After an uncomfortable and longish discussion, I came to realize that my boyfriend and I
have VERY different definitions of romance, his being more of the I love to take care of
you, I sit in very uncomfortable positions for extended periods of time so you can cuddle
with me romance and mine being the occasional cute card or hand written note, and, dare
I say it, flowers!
My boyfriend being the amazing man that he is, has promised to make every valentines
day from here on out, not like the one that just passed, and I have promised to appreciate
the little things a little more.
Long live Valentines Day!
Tuesday, July 15, 2014
Je suis helpless romantic.
I'm far from lonely, but here I am feeling the way I felt when I really had no one around.
I've got words to say, but here I am with the words finding their way back inside me.
...
I need someone I can call my own, but all the females around me do not match up to the previous.
I can't settle for less. Well I will not.
That's what I keep telling myself.
Young lady out there looking for a Young helpless romantic.
Je m'appele Kommy.
I've got words to say, but here I am with the words finding their way back inside me.
...
I need someone I can call my own, but all the females around me do not match up to the previous.
I can't settle for less. Well I will not.
That's what I keep telling myself.
Young lady out there looking for a Young helpless romantic.
Je m'appele Kommy.
Saturday, December 7, 2013
Ones
the old "ones" pass...
the new "ones" come...
new "ones" become old...
the old "ones" become the one...
even when there is a new "ones"...
the thought of having more than one "ones" comes...
but a choice has to be made because no matter how the "english" can be said or how the truth can be manipulated to make sense, more than one, "ones" isnt one any more...
but i stay true to the one...
just me n my one...
we equal one...
KOMMYTILA HAS SPOKEN.
Saturday, November 30, 2013
We say different things.
I will love you till the end of time.
My goodness, you always look so good.
We do not need money to love.
My goodness, I will pay to love you.
I can wait a million years.
My goodness, if I wait another minute I will die.
Why can't you get the drift?
My goodness. Why can't You get the the drift?
Friday, November 29, 2013
What She Said...
"Where did you hear that one now..."
The words she said when she was told the first time.
"I dont think he is my type, plus you can never know if he is serious or not."
The words she said, every time someone approached her about him...
"I think he is a nice person, you just have to get to know him"
The words she said trying to defend him...
"I dont know?, he is in Ohio with his girlfriend. I guess he is fine"
The words she said when they asked about him...
"Why do you people keep asking me about him, please he is history"
The words she said when she met some1 else...
"I am a big girl, I can take care of myself"
What she says to make herself feel better.
Wednesday, November 27, 2013
Do You, Do The Do-Able.
Heading back home at 7:33pm, Lagos really does seem peaceful
tonight, streetlights are on, no traffic, birds are swimming, and pigs are
flying. I know what awaits me when I get home. Continuous nagging from the wife who at
this point needs a divorce.
Kommytila, do you think I need to remain in the useless
marriage? I mean, we got married because she got pregnant for me 8 years ago
and the boy she gave birth to, died when he was only four.
DO YOU BOO BOO!
I have been dating this guy now for 2months. We met at a friend’s
party and all. He has another girlfriend but he called me his wife and all. He
even said he thinks we are both gonna get married. And oh my goodness he has a
really huge package, like I think he needs to be a pornstar. But the only sad
part is when we do it. I’m like is that it and it hurts all through. Kommytila,
what can a girl like me do?
DO YOU BOO BOO!
I am a happily married man, married to a half-caste hottie with four
beautiful girls, My first daughter is married to a musician and she has a son
for him. He is a member of a twin music group, she is being taken care of
properly even though. I would have wanted her to continue her education, my
second daughter is beautiful but has no thoughts, plans for tomorrow. She gets
back at odd hours of the night. My third daughter just got suspended from high
school for putting a male students prick in her mouth and the last girl she is
8 years old, we still sleeps with my wife and I and she still wets the bed.
Kommytila, what can be done about my situation?
DO THE DO-ABLE
Shout out to the voices in my
head for telling me their problems. May their issues be solved and may they
continue to provide me with materials to write.
Monday, September 30, 2013
The word between like and love [ L__E ]
Often, we leap from 'like' to 'love' because we're unsure of how to label our feelings.
These last three posts are drawn from my personal experiences. There have been numerous instances where I've wanted to express my feelings to a woman...
Yet, it's incredibly challenging because I know my emotions extend beyond 'like'. So, I tell her I love her. However, as soon as the words 'I love you' escape my lips, I feel as though I've committed a transgression against God. After all, they say 'God is love', and I certainly don't feel selfless affection for the woman.
So, I'm on a quest to find the elusive word that exists between 'like' and 'love'. Could it be 'loke'? Or perhaps 'liev'? For now, I'll refer to it as 'L__E'.
Simultaneously, I invite you to ponder and share your thoughts on the topic of "dating someone versus being in a relationship with someone". Are they the same or are they different?
Friday, August 30, 2013
Le Get Away
They say time heals,
but I still hurt the same.
I came here to... get away.
Its a marvellous night to write.
pa pa rampa pa pa ri pa pa rampa.
what that means, only my spirit knows.
As the words appear, It hurts less by the second.
I'm crying out and I can't do it on my own, I need you.
Wish I could go back, when the magic existed in us, true lovers.
Sunday, August 26, 2012
From Henry To My Mistress
Verse 1
Perhaps you do not understand
but I cannot sleep. i can hardly breathe, thinking of you.
Your image is before my eyes every waken second
I almost believed that I will sacrifice my Kingdom, for an hour in your arms
I beg you.
Name someplace that we can meet and when
that I can show you truly an affection which is beyond common affection
Chorus
I'm sorry if I offended you
i did not mean to.
i spoke plainly of my true feelings.
Verse 2
I want to say something to you.
If It pleases you to be my true loyal mistress and friend.
To give yourself surrender yourself body and soul.
I promise, I will take you as my only mistress
I won't have a third or an affection for anyone else
If you agree to be my matrees entree (official mistress)
I promise, I will serve only you.
Chorus
I'm sorry if I offended you
i did not mean to.
i spoke plainly of my true feeling.
I give you leave that we may always speak freely with each other
honestly, openly and with a true heart.
For me that is the true definition of love.
Edited words from Henry
Sunday, July 29, 2012
Let Me Be
What do you want from me
why cant you let me be
i'm not good for you
but you still want me
but cant you see
i cant be with you
'cause of the things i do
i just cant be with you
cause of who i am
So why dont you go away, far away from me
'Cause I will only hurt you while I hurt myself
I am not good alone, and I am not good with you
I have to fix myself before i let you in.
I thought I could fix myself, fixing you.
you are less than what I want
and I am less than what you need.
so why dont you let me be
What do you want from me
Please let me be
Please let me be
Monday, March 26, 2012
Friday, March 16, 2012
My obsession with the Jordan River
Somewhere in Jordan, a part of my soul rests.
I found refuge in a place so foreign and exotic.
Captured by Aphrodite herself.
My heart can do nothing but imagine what could have been if
it remained in Jordan.
The Dead Sea was the destination and my soul still floats
around with no possibility of sinking and drowning…
As incomplete as my words,
So my decisions are,
As incomplete as our relationship was,
So do I wish all your relationships ‘til I find my way
floating back to Jordan.
Friday, September 2, 2011
When is the right time to leave?
My friends and I where in the zones and I asked this questions and no one came up with an answer that I could relate to... say my dear blogizzles... when is the right time to leave a relationship?
do u wait till you are fed up?
do u leave when the thought of the question occurs?
after the 1st 3 months?
never?
cos i was taught that if sumn doesnt work ... try ... try and try again...
right now. my mentality is... before i get into a relationship try my best to figure atleast 30% of the person the rest during the relationship and if we get into a prob... we work things thru... but heeey from my past record you prob wont believe my new ideas on relationships so people I ask of you...
WHEN IS THE RIGHT TIME TO LEAVE A RELATIONSHIP?
do u wait till you are fed up?
do u leave when the thought of the question occurs?
after the 1st 3 months?
never?
cos i was taught that if sumn doesnt work ... try ... try and try again...
right now. my mentality is... before i get into a relationship try my best to figure atleast 30% of the person the rest during the relationship and if we get into a prob... we work things thru... but heeey from my past record you prob wont believe my new ideas on relationships so people I ask of you...
WHEN IS THE RIGHT TIME TO LEAVE A RELATIONSHIP?
Friday, August 12, 2011
LOVE & INFATUATION
#SoYouInLoveNow because you think bout him/her all day?
#SoYouInLoveNow because you see stars when u kiss?
shit...
#SoYouInLoveNow because he/she is your life?
at what point does it become infatuation , or are they the same?
which do u prefer?
or does infatuation develop into love?
hmmm?
please lecture me people...
#SoYouInLoveNow because you see stars when u kiss?
shit...
#SoYouInLoveNow because he/she is your life?
at what point does it become infatuation , or are they the same?
which do u prefer?
or does infatuation develop into love?
hmmm?
please lecture me people...
Saturday, July 30, 2011
COKE AND FANTA
COCA-COLA AND FANTA: A BEVERAGE DILEMMA
Hello everyone, I find myself in a quandary over the creators of Coca-Cola and Fanta. It's a conundrum of epic proportions that has me questioning my beverage preferences.
We are all familiar with Coca-Cola. It's not as sweet as one might assume, yet it contains more sugar than Fanta. Fanta, on the other hand, is visually appealing. One might assume it's sweeter than Coca-Cola, but it isn't. I'm sure you've noticed that Coca-Cola is more prevalent than Fanta in most places.
When I have Coca-Cola in my fridge, I feel an indescribable affinity for it. It's as if I can't live without it. The same applies to Fanta. Although it's not as ubiquitous as Coca-Cola, when I find it, I want nothing more than to savor it.
However, I currently find myself without either Coca-Cola or Fanta. It feels as if the manufacturers have abandoned me, leaving me feeling desolate and emotionally bereft. I'm left pondering which I desire more - Coca-Cola or Fanta?
As I was trying to make a decision, I noticed Sprite and Burn (the energy drink... so mild yet so strong and wild). This led me to wonder, am I being selfish? Should I choose between Coca-Cola and Fanta, or should I forgo them and opt for Sprite and Burn?
Furthermore, I realized that consuming all these drinks could potentially lead to health issues, such as diabetes.
I'm genuinely perplexed, folks. I'm unsure of how to choose, what to choose, or even what course of action to take.
For now, I've decided not to discriminate. I'll sample all of them and make a final decision based on which one offers the most satisfying taste. Kommytila has spoken.
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
WHAT HAPPENS
what happens when you think it will last forever but... wow the end is here...
what happens when you know you cant have the one you wish for...
what happens when the one you want is with anoda person you dislike...
what happens when everything you lay your hand on dies out...
what happens when you really cant understand whats happening...
what happens when you know you have to move on. but you just cant...
what happens when he/she doesnt even look at you again (calling is not even an issue)
what happens when you feel like a part of your heart is decomposing...
what happens when you finally think you have moved on ... and then realise you really arent half way.
what happens when the one u love betrays you...
what happens when the one u love keeps hurting you but yet you still want he/she to love you...
what happens...
what happens when one decides to end his/her life because they cant have the one dey desire...
what happens...
what happens...
what happens...
wht happens when the one you love begins to disgust you and you begin to hate "the one" but yet still love him/her...
what happens...
what happens when you cant think again...
what happens...
Monday, July 25, 2011
HEARTBREAK.
Yes true.
we always think we like/love/feel the other person in the relationship.
we always feel like it will never end or should i say hope nothing wrong will happen
we put in the best/our very best into our relationship.
we try u know, we really do try.
but... HEARTBREAK ... gbosa. just like that
well most ov us have been heart-broken. some more than others.
is it that we dont try enough to make our relationships work. or is the other person just. ah!!!!!!
there is no point to this post but i am wondering why we break hearts and why we allow our hearts get broken. when we know that at one point ov d relationship it will end... abi. its not as if we marrying the person...
but if we allow ourselves to think like the above paragraph. then relationships wont be ... iono how to explain... wont be DEN DEN DEN DEN...
so I ask what can we do in other to stop heartbreak...
is it really possible.
cuz i feel one person just has to be heart broken...
2 B IN A RELATIONSHIP OR NOT... DECISION SHUD BE-"TO BE HEART-BROKEN OR TO BREAK SUM1S HEART.
Monday, February 28, 2011
Single Life... tired ov it.
k. so. i have been enjoying my holday u know... chilling relaxing err thing u know... living the life...
but at this point where err1 around me is u know dating anoda person...
i feel. n believe. its my turn u know. tired ov being single. i need my own u know... even popsy tried to hook me up wiv sum1...
i feel. n believe. its my turn u know. tired ov being single. i need my own u know... even popsy tried to hook me up wiv sum1...
and true the babe was fit. very fit. fine. and she looks very proper u know. wife/girlfriend material.
but ehm.. i live in canada she here in london... am a guy... temptation will come. so... ehm dat wont work. it got me thinking.. u know
i think i need a babe... not just a normal one... some one i can chill wiv and do errthing wiv... some one i can mess infront ov and she do the same and we ll laugh about it.. u know.. not sure u ppl understand me... but
ive been searching... but just avnt found yet. hope i will one day... soon.
single life... very borin
kommytila has spoken
kommy obasa on facebook... if u want to check me out
to find me. just click on kommytila the blogger on the side directly under the konfirmed yarnz badge on the side of this page.
hmmm waiting for ur friend request.
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