Showing posts with label LOVE. Show all posts
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Sunday, February 15, 2015

Valentine's Day

My girlfriend says our relationship lacks romance, she says that I should send notes and give her cards for Valentine's day.

The conversation started with "What exactly do you celebrate?"  I thought for a second and the first thing that came to my mind was "I celebrate success." She said "No I mean a certain time/date in the calendar."

I realized she was talking about Valentine's day so I asked her if our little Valentine's day charade was not up to par.

She said she wished I celebrated it.

I was stunned for some minutes mainly because I thought the day went on well.

At mid-night, she said Happy Valentine's day and gave me a card and I responded. We went to bed, she woke up and went to work. When she got back I was sleeping, I had a long night the day before. She went to wash her hair, when she was done she kissed me and told me she was going to make her hair.

By the time she got back, I was fully awake and I welcomed her back home. I was excited to see her. She had just made her hair, it was a new look and I knew she would be expecting me to notice it and say something good, BUT, I noticed something odd about the hair and it showed on my face. That I believe was the beginning of my downfall on Valentine's day.

We had guests in the house and we were playing Monopoly, my darling girlfriend was right next to me the whole time. She sneezed a few times and I checked up on her.  Later on I had the chance to sneak away, so I did and I called her upstairs to be alone together. But these past few days she has decided to keep herself busy doing other things with her reason being "I do not want to be idle".

Anyway we had planned to go see a movie, we went to the movie, we enjoyed our movie and we went back home. We went straight upstairs to the bedroom leaving our guests who were comfortable were we left them.

I picked up my laptop having plans to continue writing my novel but I noticed that she seemed a little off, so I dropped my laptop and called her over so we could cuddle and what not. It was then she decided to open up to me.



I admit my failures today as a lover, for not buying a card or a gift. I should have thought of her feelings.

She said our relationship lacks romance and for the span of our relationship I had not shown any romantic gesture.

That hurt, and it hurt deep.  I have always felt everyday should be a day to show your partner that you truly care for them and that you love them. I never believed cards and gifts were measures of ones love.

But since she is my lover and that is part of her standard of measuring love, this post is here to remind me of the oath I have made tonight.

To make every valentines day different from this very one.


Saturday, November 30, 2013

We say different things.

I will love you till the end of time.

My goodness, you always look so good.

We do not need money to love.

My goodness, I will pay to love you.

I can wait a million years.

My goodness, if I wait another minute I will die.

Why can't you get the drift?

My goodness. Why can't You get the the drift?

Friday, November 29, 2013

What She Said...


"Where did you hear that one now..."
The words she said when she was told the first time.

"I dont think he is my type, plus you can never know if he is serious or not."
The words she said, every time someone approached her about him...

"I think he is a nice person, you just have to get to know him"
The words she said trying to defend him...

"I dont know?, he is in Ohio with his girlfriend. I guess he is fine"
The words she said when they asked about him...

"Why do you people keep asking me about him, please he is history"
The words she said when she met some1 else...

"I am a big girl, I can take care of myself"
What she says to make herself feel better.

Monday, September 30, 2013

The word between like and love [ L__E ]



Often, we leap from 'like' to 'love' because we're unsure of how to label our feelings.

These last three posts are drawn from my personal experiences. There have been numerous instances where I've wanted to express my feelings to a woman...

Yet, it's incredibly challenging because I know my emotions extend beyond 'like'. So, I tell her I love her. However, as soon as the words 'I love you' escape my lips, I feel as though I've committed a transgression against God. After all, they say 'God is love', and I certainly don't feel selfless affection for the woman.

So, I'm on a quest to find the elusive word that exists between 'like' and 'love'. Could it be 'loke'? Or perhaps 'liev'? For now, I'll refer to it as 'L__E'.

Simultaneously, I invite you to ponder and share your thoughts on the topic of "dating someone versus being in a relationship with someone". Are they the same or are they different?

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Fatima, Fatima, Fatima


I wanted somebody to want me.
I needed somebody to need me.
I wanted somebody to crave me.

Now all my prayers have been answered with a great clause.

Now that I have found someone to call my own, I am faced with trials that may test fate and faith.

Now there is a hurdle in front of me.


How do I jump OR leap over it?



How do I explain to one I believe to be my missing rib that the different religions we both belong to hinder our progress?

HENCE

Will I prevail?


?Which one of us will have to make a huge decision that may affect our eternity


Will I still have someone who wants me?


?Will changing religions make the individual that changes incomplete for the rest of the individuals life


Will I still have someone who craves me?


MY FAIR LADY LETS LIVE IN THE NOW, THE TODAY AND LET TOMORROW HANDLE ITSELF?

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Music And My Love Life.

One of my favorite musicians of all time happens to be Sade. 
I have secretly pondered on why I like her songs so much.
Well Today I figured it out while listening to Sade's No Ordinary Love.
It reminded me of my high school love, who truly did all she could and I did not reciprocate the love. Her love for me seemed more than ordinary. I just was not ready for it. I felt I could do better than her. I did not want to settle for something I believed to be less. 

At that time in high school Usher was my favorite artist, I appeared to be like a Rake, I attracted females with little or no effort atleast that's what others thought. I was always in a relationship and if it things were not working out I moved on to another. 

Then again, during my low points, I listen to Sade's songs because she always had a lover she was singing for. She always sang about the love she had for him and how she was not going to back down or she sang about how the love her lover gave her was the best. She always made me want to be the lover she sang about. It was then I realized I lost a great love, perhaps my first love. I believe subconsciously I replaced my supposed first love with Sade and her lyrics. 

After a while I realized the females I fell for were always the "romantic type" even if they did not show it. I always found them. They were always the ones who suffered from a serious heartbreak. I always felt it was my responsibility to rescue them, thinking if I can make them love again it will make up for my high school error. But once they fall for me, I leave them with a deeper hole than I met. I leave them in a worse state, simply because my scars are not healed and because the hole in my soul is greater than what they can fill up.

So what did I do? I listened to Sade more. Hoping I will find someone like her or my first love again or someone better. But brrr it never happened. I tried to fill my hole with several cravings, pleasures and fantasies. Yet it remained.

Usher was no longer encouraging to me so I searched for an artist who understood me or an artist whose case was similar to mine.
The Weeknd became a good friend for a while, simply because his songs are indeed sad and he lets the world know about his pain and how he tries to cover them up.
After a long time of being a fan of his, I tried to get out of that phase. I began to search for an artist who was happy and in need of love. That was when I found Wizkid.

Wizkid made me love again, he made me start going out again. His songs gave me encouragement to find a woman to love even if it was for one night. Sadly I never felt true love with any of the women so I went back into a little form of depression. That was when I found Lana Del Rey.

She seemed to be truly happy with her sadness. She seemed like she will stick with her man no matter the weather. It made me feel like I had more hope. Like I did not have to change who I believe I was. 

I'm happy now that there are better songs I can still listen to. But Sade still remains one of them. That on it's own probably means I am still searching.

Sunday, August 26, 2012

From Henry To My Mistress


Verse 1

Perhaps you do not understand
but I cannot sleep. i can hardly breathe, thinking of you.

Your image is before my eyes every waken second

I almost believed that I will sacrifice my Kingdom, for an hour in your arms
I beg you. 
Name someplace that we can meet and when
that I can show you truly an affection which is beyond common affection

Chorus
I'm sorry if I offended you
i did not mean to.
i spoke plainly of my true feelings.

Verse 2

I want to say something to you.
If It pleases you to be my true loyal mistress and friend.
To give yourself surrender yourself body and soul.
I promise, I will take you as my only mistress
I won't have a third or an affection for anyone else
If you agree to be my matrees entree (official mistress)
I promise, I will serve only you.

Chorus
I'm sorry if I offended you
i did not mean to.
i spoke plainly of my true feeling.



I give you leave that we may always speak freely with each other
honestly, openly and with a true heart.
For me that is the true definition of love.


Edited words from Henry

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Let Me Be


What do you want from me
why cant you let me be
i'm not good for you
but you still want me
but cant you see
i cant be with you
'cause of the things i do
i just cant be with you
cause of who i am

So why dont you go away, far away from me
'Cause I will only hurt you while I hurt myself
I am not good alone, and I am not good with you
I have to fix myself before i let you in.
I thought I could fix myself, fixing you. 

you are less than what I want
and I am less than what you need.
so why dont you let me be
What do you want from me
Please let me be
Please let me be

Friday, September 2, 2011

When is the right time to leave?

My friends and I where in the zones and I asked this questions and no one came up with an answer that I could relate to... say my dear blogizzles... when is the right time to leave a relationship?

do u wait till you are fed up?

do u leave when the thought of the question occurs?

after the 1st 3 months?

never?

cos i was taught that if sumn doesnt work ... try ... try and try again...
right now. my mentality is... before i get into a relationship try my best to figure atleast 30% of the person the rest during the relationship and if we get into a prob... we work things thru... but heeey from my past record you prob wont believe my new ideas on relationships so people I ask of you...

WHEN IS THE RIGHT TIME TO LEAVE A RELATIONSHIP?

Friday, August 12, 2011

LOVE & INFATUATION

#SoYouInLoveNow because you think bout him/her all day?

#SoYouInLoveNow because you see stars when u kiss?

shit... 

 #SoYouInLoveNow because he/she is your life?

at what point does it become infatuation , or are they the same?

which do u prefer? 

or does infatuation develop into love?

hmmm?


please lecture me people...

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Under G Sturvs ......


First of all, Lol at some peoples reasoning skills....you are dating a babe and also claim to be in LOVE wiv her. Her closest and LONGEST friend from childhood has a crush on you and you are fully aware..... instead of atleast letting your girl know, you decide to keep it to yourself even when you know your babe is a jealous one and d kinda babe that has *OPEN-EYE*. Well, u start liking her friend..lol in d process of not wanting to hurt your girl, you both decide to keep it "ON THE LOW"........you take dis babe to shop for a gift for ur girlfriends birthday and then decide to buy her stuff too, DID U THINK UR BABE WONT FIND OUT especially when ur d stingy type??? Anyhow, your babe being an UNDER G expert in the sense that she had been in a lot of relationships sha and had played her cards right all the time but in your case, she decided to keep it real, smh.....lol... O'well, she asked you guys separately and you denied it. just because she loved you too much, she sucked it up oh until ............dis friends best friend started liking you too ..... Now, they both like you .... obviously, one person will want you all to herself and apparently, FOWL NYASH GO OPEN...SHA.... Ur shawty has found out now and Yawa don gas, she has left u....You are welcome to the singles club and Sorry but No Sorry :P U have to start from d scratch and start Toasting again :P
.........~| dont do it with someone close because UR BABE GO CATCH U...If u cant Do Under G... Stick to Commitent or better still, REMAIN SINGLE|~....................

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Imperfections Written by Blesyn.


               whenever I am asked, Blesyn, describe ur Dream Guy, I would always imagine this kinda Will smith, in Christiano Ronaldo's body, with the smile of Mario Lopez,the voice of Majid Micheal, obama's mentality,the wealth of Bill Gates+Jay z+Rick Ross+Donald Trump all mixed together, he must Not snore, he must have some serious dress sense and bla bla bla!!! ohh did i forget he shld be able to sing like Usher,rap like florida, but wen he talks he must sound like my Dad besides there shld be some trey songs or chris brown ish in him!!! now dats a perfect guy!!! lmaooo  i want all these i want in one person??? but thats why its called a Dream right??? ...

I am not perfect, 
so i shldnt expect anything extra ordinary
I don't fail too see the faults of people
so i should always remember that my faults are glaring at others in the face 
I talk about what i see, i joke about the mistakes of people(which is wrong) 
so i shldnt expect people to see my mistakes and say "nahhh lets be quiet"
since i am not a beyonce+alicia keys+keri hilson +michelle obama+ nicki minaj 
i shld not cross ma legs and chill and wait for a will smith +obama+ usher+ etc etc 
but i am not expectin a mr ibu+ sam loco +ukwa all in one man oooo 
sometimes we strive so hard for perfections that  we forget the main aims of  whatever we r doing!!! 
I am blesyn and i am expecting u  just u wiv nothing else added to u.. i will learn to love you the way u are and be contented wiv what i have , that is why i have you.
BLESYN.

Monday, January 10, 2011

Can you date(wife/husband/boyfriend/girlfriend) a fuck buddy?

1st it was LOVE n INFATUATION
then it was When is the right time to leave... well I am heading somewhere with my series of questions...
now the final one.

Can you date a fuck buddy/bootycall e.t.c?

will it last?
when it ends, will y'all still be friends?
is it adviseable to date ur fuck buddy?

after all the comments... on my next post i will link LOVE n INDATUATION, When is the right time to leave? and Can you date a fuck buddy?

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Silence...so so loud...

It's peculiar how I can appear strong on the outside, seemingly content, yet inside I'm soft and melancholic.

I try to distract myself with other aspects of my life - the women I'm seeing, the money I'm earning. But if I'm honest, everything I do, I do because of you.

I attempt to stop thinking about you, but it's futile.

The tragic part is that I know where I should be... but at this moment, I'm at a loss for words. I'm utterly confused.

I haven't seen you in a while, but our recent encounter has sparked a flurry of emotions, igniting red, white, and blue wires in my mind and heart.

I have not seen you in a while but seeing you again just triggered some red, white and blue wires in my head and heart.

I once told myself, "Move on, man," but I simply can't... or wait, did I? It doesn't matter now.

The most heartbreaking part is that I want you, but I'm simultaneously terrified of rejection and the potential embarrassment that could follow.

And all these thoughts are bouncing around inside me...

The thoughts are deafening... screaming (if such a word exists)... as if they're amplified by microphones and speakers...

One day, I'll find a way to express my feelings. And if you don't reciprocate my love, someone else will.



__________________________________________________________________________________
KOMMYTILA.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Should I Make A Move?

Short dark hair.

Slim Fit.

Perfect from top to bottom.

sitting right infront of me...

Thinking bout making a move.

also thinking if it will make us any closer...

thinking of dropping the darn weight on my shoulder.

I want you to be mine...

DANG

i keep thinking to my self...

I SHOULD JUST KISS U RIGHT NOW...

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

From her to him by inner nympho

I want you
I want you to say my name
I want you to kiss my lips
I want you to take my clothes off
I want you to suck on my nipples and tell me how wonderful my breasts are
I want you to trail your tongue down my belly and get to my little mound of flesh
I want you to put your mouth on my second lips and kiss it as I moan your name
I want you to take your shirt off and let me kiss your chest and shoulders
I want you to take your pants off and lay down on my bed
I want you to say “come get this dick”
I want you to moan as I suck on you
I want you to watch me swallow
I want you to pull my hair and spank my ass while you take me from behind
I want you to talk dirty to me as you fuck me
I want you to cum on my tits and watch me massage it into my skin
I want you to lie on the bed with me after all is and said done; fall asleep in my arms
There is no reason not to cook up a continuous carnal flesh feast
I know you have tasted the warmth between a woman’s thighs but have you ever tasted mine?
Our mental foreplay has gone on for far too long
There is no need to deprive the soul of what it has been brought in this world to enjoy
We need the magic of the night to whisper sweet incantations and put us under the spell of lust
And at the time of meeting, there is no place I’d rather be
I want to feel you with me and in me
I want you

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

cinderella bout to lose the glass of her feet...

Cinderella bout to lose the glass of her feet...
almost midnight...
u know you gotta run back home like the fairy godmother said
but yet you wait...
you wait till its almost or already too late...
your 15mins started an hour ago...
what am I supposed to do...
this feelings keep going through my head...
and yet i am still with you...
well
Cinderella lost the glass of her feet...
and I just found it...

Saturday, May 29, 2010

Black Roses


A mutual understanding...
So yummy good n spicy...
Weeks passed, months
Things still  cool.
then the arguments, the quarrels, the mistakes 
I keep coming back to apologize even though I KNOW u are the one at fault.
but the same arguments quarrels n mistakes...
well this is my own side of the story
This cycle cant keep happening. 
u say I try to change you... i try to control you...
if i see u playing with a knife n i tell u to drop it. 
is that bad?
I have tried...

Tonight,
I give unto thee Black Roses...
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