A Conversation With Fear

Alabi: What is this in my heart?
        My legs can't move
        my lips seem sealed shut
       Even my brain seem to have shut down.
               Now am thinking in my head, what shall I say. Then I say,

Alabi: Who is this?
        Why are you blocking my way?

Fear: I am fear
        and I am here to stay

Alabi: No way
        you can't stay
        this is an important phase
        and you r stopping me from what i would love to embrace

Fear: Sorry this is my place
        and my mission is to satop you from making mistakes
        no matter what it takes

Alabi: Even if it means loosing my stakes?

Fear: well stakes could cost you your pride

Alabi: Thats a good point
        But its pointless if you haven`t tried

Fear: Whats the point of trying
       When you know ur chances are low
        It`s just like playing a lottery

Alabi: I could be lucky you know
       The stakes show good signs

Fear: Ya, they always do
        till you lose

Alabi: Now that you said that
        You leave me with 2 options
        I either go play for the stakes
        or i stay here and waste my break

Fear: Make your choice

Alabi: I go get my stakes

Fear: Remember your pride

Alabi: Fuck my pride
        Damn, it`s already late
        You casued this delay

Fear: I guess my job here is done
        See you some other time

Alabi: I hate him
        See what he`s done
       Am sure he`ll be back again
         Next time I`ll be ready

also written by = anonymous( meaning he doesnt want ppl to know it was him that wrote it)

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Under G Sturvs ......

First of all, Lol at some peoples reasoning skills....you are dating a babe and also claim to be in LOVE wiv her. Her closest and LONGEST friend from childhood has a crush on you and you are fully aware..... instead of atleast letting your girl know, you decide to keep it to yourself even when you know your babe is a jealous one and d kinda babe that has *OPEN-EYE*. Well, u start liking her friend..lol in d process of not wanting to hurt your girl, you both decide to keep it "ON THE LOW"........you take dis babe to shop for a gift for ur girlfriends birthday and then decide to buy her stuff too, DID U THINK UR BABE WONT FIND OUT especially when ur d stingy type??? Anyhow, your babe being an UNDER G expert in the sense that she had been in a lot of relationships sha and had played her cards right all the time but in your case, she decided to keep it real, smh.....lol... O'well, she asked you guys separately and you denied it. just because she loved you too much, she sucked it up oh until ............dis friends best friend started liking you too ..... Now, they both like you .... obviously, one person will want you all to herself and apparently, FOWL NYASH GO OPEN...SHA.... Ur shawty has found out now and Yawa don gas, she has left u....You are welcome to the singles club and Sorry but No Sorry :P U have to start from d scratch and start Toasting again :P

.........~| dont do it with someone close because UR BABE GO CATCH U...If u cant Do Under G... Stick to Commitent or better still, REMAIN SINGLE|~....................

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Imperfections Written by Blesyn.

               whenever I am asked, Blesyn, describe ur Dream Guy, I would always imagine this kinda Will smith, in Christiano Ronaldo's body, with the smile of Mario Lopez,the voice of Majid Micheal, obama's mentality,the wealth of Bill Gates+Jay z+Rick Ross+Donald Trump all mixed together, he must Not snore, he must have some serious dress sense and bla bla bla!!! ohh did i forget he shld be able to sing like Usher,rap like florida, but wen he talks he must sound like my Dad besides there shld be some trey songs or chris brown ish in him!!! now dats a perfect guy!!! lmaooo  i want all these i want in one person??? but thats why its called a Dream right??? ...

I am not perfect, 

so i shldnt expect anything extra ordinary

I don't fail too see the faults of people

so i should always remember that my faults are glaring at others in the face 

I talk about what i see, i joke about the mistakes of people(which is wrong) 

so i shldnt expect people to see my mistakes and say "nahhh lets be quiet"

since i am not a beyonce+alicia keys+keri hilson +michelle obama+ nicki minaj 

i shld not cross ma legs and chill and wait for a will smith +obama+ usher+ etc etc 

but i am not expectin a mr ibu+ sam loco +ukwa all in one man oooo 

sometimes we strive so hard for perfections that  we forget the main aims of  whatever we r doing!!! 

I am blesyn and i am expecting u  just u wiv nothing else added to u.. i will learn to love you the way u are and be contented wiv what i have , that is why i have you.

BLESYN.

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Can you date(wife/husband/boyfriend/girlfriend) a fuck buddy?

1st it was LOVE n INFATUATION
then it was When is the right time to leave... well I am heading somewhere with my series of questions...
now the final one.

Can you date a fuck buddy/bootycall e.t.c?

will it last?
when it ends, will y'all still be friends?
is it adviseable to date ur fuck buddy?

after all the comments... on my next post i will link LOVE n INDATUATION, When is the right time to leave? and Can you date a fuck buddy?

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Silence...so so loud...

It's peculiar how I can appear strong on the outside, seemingly content, yet inside I'm soft and melancholic.

I try to distract myself with other aspects of my life - the women I'm seeing, the money I'm earning. But if I'm honest, everything I do, I do because of you.

I attempt to stop thinking about you, but it's futile.

The tragic part is that I know where I should be... but at this moment, I'm at a loss for words. I'm utterly confused.

I haven't seen you in a while, but our recent encounter has sparked a flurry of emotions, igniting red, white, and blue wires in my mind and heart.

I have not seen you in a while but seeing you again just triggered some red, white and blue wires in my head and heart.

I once told myself, "Move on, man," but I simply can't... or wait, did I? It doesn't matter now.

The most heartbreaking part is that I want you, but I'm simultaneously terrified of rejection and the potential embarrassment that could follow.

And all these thoughts are bouncing around inside me...

The thoughts are deafening... screaming (if such a word exists)... as if they're amplified by microphones and speakers...

One day, I'll find a way to express my feelings. And if you don't reciprocate my love, someone else will.

__________________________________________________________________________________

KOMMYTILA.

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Should I Make A Move?

Short dark hair.

Slim Fit.

Perfect from top to bottom.

sitting right infront of me...

Thinking bout making a move.

also thinking if it will make us any closer...

thinking of dropping the darn weight on my shoulder.

I want you to be mine...

DANG

i keep thinking to my self...

I SHOULD JUST KISS U RIGHT NOW...

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From her to him by inner nympho

I want you
I want you to say my name
I want you to kiss my lips
I want you to take my clothes off
I want you to suck on my nipples and tell me how wonderful my breasts are
I want you to trail your tongue down my belly and get to my little mound of flesh
I want you to put your mouth on my second lips and kiss it as I moan your name
I want you to take your shirt off and let me kiss your chest and shoulders
I want you to take your pants off and lay down on my bed
I want you to say “come get this dick”
I want you to moan as I suck on you
I want you to watch me swallow
I want you to pull my hair and spank my ass while you take me from behind
I want you to talk dirty to me as you fuck me
I want you to cum on my tits and watch me massage it into my skin
I want you to lie on the bed with me after all is and said done; fall asleep in my arms
There is no reason not to cook up a continuous carnal flesh feast
I know you have tasted the warmth between a woman’s thighs but have you ever tasted mine?
Our mental foreplay has gone on for far too long
There is no need to deprive the soul of what it has been brought in this world to enjoy
We need the magic of the night to whisper sweet incantations and put us under the spell of lust
And at the time of meeting, there is no place I’d rather be
I want to feel you with me and in me
I want you

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cinderella bout to lose the glass of her feet...

Cinderella bout to lose the glass of her feet...
almost midnight...
u know you gotta run back home like the fairy godmother said
but yet you wait...
you wait till its almost or already too late...
your 15mins started an hour ago...
what am I supposed to do...
this feelings keep going through my head...
and yet i am still with you...
well
Cinderella lost the glass of her feet...
and I just found it...

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Black Roses

A mutual understanding...

So yummy good n spicy...

Weeks passed, months

Things still  cool.

then the arguments, the quarrels, the mistakes 

I keep coming back to apologize even though I KNOW u are the one at fault.

but the same arguments quarrels n mistakes...

well this is my own side of the story

This cycle cant keep happening. 

u say I try to change you... i try to control you...

if i see u playing with a knife n i tell u to drop it. 

is that bad?

I have tried...

Tonight,

I give unto thee Black Roses...

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The missing part.

I have got a hole in my heart, lost to the world... 

the missing part is you...

moving around everyday wishing and hoping my heart be healed...

wishing the missing part will surface and my heart shall be whole again...

but...

its been to damn long...

finally, i realize that i have lived without and i am still alive...

I shall remain this way... i guess you make another persons heart whole. 

they say if you really like someone,you let 'em go, and if he/she is meant for you. 

he/she ll be back.

but till you come back...

just know i stay incomplete...

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Perfect

 We always want the best of the best...

 We always expect more from our "partner"

 but we never really look at ourselves.

 the normal excuse we give is " I can not settle for less"

 you can not request a 10, if you are not a 10 yourself

 you can only hope, do not demand a 10 if you are a 6.

 because the so called 10 wants a 10 as well.

Most girls want tall, muscular men, most guys want properly shaped, hot lil things {grrrr} and then forget about personality, character, things that really matter, I try to explain to people that it is not just all about the abs, boobs, ass it's more than that.

What about the others that are not physically endowed? Are they not entitled to love?

KOMMYTILA HAS SPOKEN AGAIN.

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water...

Water so essential...

need to drink water errday...

but water is tasteless, non-colorful , so transperent, no fun

very boring...

so why on earth do i have to give drinking it every bloody day.

when i can have crush, coke, sprite. e.t.c.

but yet i stick to water...

they say it has nutrients ...

well i cant see it...

i think i am about going to the cornershop to get orange soda

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Mistakes

I hit my head against the wall real hard.
It hurts but yet I do it again.
I bleed.
Injury heals.
I peel the healing wound thereby injuring myself sum more.
They say pain is pleasure. How true?

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Single... nah mehn Plural is better.

alright my people....

so me n my man dem wer having a talk and this sentence was made "last time I checked to be plural is better than single"

I went back home to think about it...

Is "plural" really better than  "single"...

and I came to some conclusions

but before that I had to understand the phrase.

"Plural is better than single"

that phrase doesn't say anything about being in a serious relationship...  it basically says. having 2 or more runz at the same time is better than being single...

its funny how the world is changing and the relationship factor is leaving us small small...

note. I fall into the bad group for I agreed that plural is better than being single...

pls try n find more meaning to this post...

and hopefully we shall heal ourselves

so I leave y'all with the question...

is plural actually better than single?

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I HIGHLIGHTED THE ONES I BELIEVE TO BE IMPORTANT

THIS IS NOT ABOUT BEING HEARTLESS OR ANYTHING. ITS SIMPLE LOGIC… GIRLS EXPECT SO MUCH FROM BOIS. WITHOUT EVEN THINKING ABOUT WHAT BOYS WANT/THINK… found this list… and felt n feel girls should read and change where changes need 2 b made…

1. Sometimes we just don’t want to talk. Don’t take it personally.
2. We notice other women because we are men and we are alive. This does not mean we’re planning to dump you and jump them.
3. Our favorite T-shirts are not “disgraceful.” They show our loyalty to our college, our favorite sports team, our favorite beer, our favorite vacation or number 23.
4. Helpless is not cute.
5. Get to the point.
6. Understand that men are single-minded and can only do one thing at a time. So don’t talk to us while we’re doing something. We will either ignore you, because we don’t hear you “honestly), or we’ll screw up what we’re doing because you’ve distracted us.
Exception to Rule 6. Interrupt us if something is on fire, if someone needs immediate medical attention, if Pamela Lee is on TV or if there is an emergency that needs a hero.
7. You can’t complain that there are no good guys around while some of us are still single.
8. If you ask us, “Do you think she’s prettier then me?” we just might say, “Yes.” Then what are you going to do?
9. Don’t expect even a great relationship with us to solve all your problems. Just because we love you, doesn’t mean your cellulite, your credit card debt or your bad mood will disappear.
10. We would not wear high heels to impress you.
11. Breathe occasionally so we can get a word in.
12. For us, driving is not just a means of going from point A to point B. It’s an opportunity to control a couple of tons of steel. We drive, therefore, we are.
13. If you want us to notice something, help us out by saying something like, “I went to the beauty shop today.”
14. If you have to have a cat, at least don’t call him “Mister” anything.
15. Hide the self help books when we come over. They make us nervous.
16. We need to vegetate.
17. We don’t go shopping. When we need something, we buy it.
18. We believe our bodily functions are perfectly normal and, at times, quite amusing.
19. We don’t believe you when you say money isn’t important to you.
20. When we see pictures of Michael Douglas and Catherine Zeta-Jones we feel proud and happy to be men. We don’t care if it’s not fair.
21. It’s not that we don’t want to make you happy, it’s just that sometimes, we don’t know how.
22. Learn to work the toilet seat. If it’s up, put it down.
23. If it itches, it will be scratched.
24. If you ask a question you don’t really want an answer to, expect an answer you didn’t want to hear.
25. Sometimes, we’re not thinking about you. Live with it.
26. Don’t ask us what were thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss topiCs such as navel lint, the shotgun formation and monster trucks.
27. Sundays equals sports. Period.
28. Beer is as exciting for us as handbags are for you.
29. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine. Really.
30. You have enough clothes.
31. You have too many shoes.
32. Crying is blackmail.
33. Your ex-boyfriend is an idiot.
34. Ask for what you want. Let’s be clear on this one: Subtle hints don’t work. Strong hints don’t work. Really obvious hints don’t work. Just say it!
35. No, we don’t know what day it is. We never will. Mark anniversaries on a calendar you know we check.
36. We’re not mind readers and we never will be. OUr lack of mind-reading ability is not proof of how little we care about you.
37. Most guys own three pairs of shoes. What makes you think we’d be any good at choosing which pair - out of 30 - would look good with your dress?
38. Yes and no are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.
39. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That’s what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.
40. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem. See a doctor.
41. Check your oil.
42. Don’t fake it. We’d rather be ineffective than deceived.
43. It is neither in your best interest or ours to take any quiz together.
44. It doesn’t matter which quiz.
45. Anything we said six months ago is inadmissible in an argument. All comments become null and void after seven days.
46. If you won’t dress like the Victoria Secret girls, don’t expect us to act like the soap opera guys.
47. If something we said could be interpreted two ways, and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one.
48. You can either ask us to do something or tell us how you want it done. Not both.
49. Whenever possible, please say whatever you have to say during commercials.
50. Christopher Columbus didn’t need directions, and neither do we.
51. If you wear a Wonderbra and a low-cut blouse, you lose the right to complain about having your boobs stared at.
52. Our relationship is never going to be like it was the first two months we were going out.
53. Men see a limited number of colors, like Windows default settings. Peach is a fruit, not a color.
54. Ditto melon.
55. If we ask what’s wrong and you say “nothing,” we will act like nothing is wrong.

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the world in the eyes of the clown

MIXTURE OF FICTION N REALITY

I like the way people see me... "the happy person" "the dude that really doesnt have to work for anything"

but if you smell the odour oozing from my smelly shoes, you will not want your enemies foot inside them.

I always call myself "the clown" because most of the time I wear a mask. So people do not  get to see the emptiness in my eyes.

Clowns have painted faces, dress in funny ways. have a smile on their face 25hrs of the day, they crack jokes, make silly faces, do tricks, just to make everyone smile, they do not do it because they want to they do it so they can get paid, if they had the choice they probably would not be clowns. I mean who takes a clown seriously, they get kicked and spat at by most of us...

 Well reality hits as the paint falls off.

no matter how hard I try to make people happy they never get it, they spit on me and kick me.

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DO YOU STILL THINK ABOUT ME

Now that we are over I have a couple of questions for you...

Do {

        you think bout the good times we had?
        you remember when you told me you loved me?
        you still wear the clothes, jewelry I bought for you?
        you remember our little fights?
        you remember how i always came back to say sorry?
        you remember anything good about me?

       }

WAIT... WAIT... WAIT... WAIT... WAIT... WAIT...

I GAVE YOU MY HEART, Seems like I just was not good enough

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GUYS SUCK...

K SO WATS POPPING MY PPL. U MIGHT HAVE NOT NOTICED BUT IVE PAST MY 50 POSTS MARK... HAPPY TO SAY I DID IT IN A REALLY SHORT TIME STARTED BLOGGING IN JUNE AND IN NOVERMBER 50 POST ALREADY...


ANYWAYS... THE D MAIN D MAIN. GUYS SUCK...

seriously that is old news i rili am tired of hearing this gist... there are plenty solutions to this situation...

the first one is very very simple... "why fall in luff wiv bad bois in the first place when there are so many gud bois out there... who are just shy n scared of being rejected by you. the probably would treat u better than the low lives that u claim to like, the ones that "break you heart" but no its the happening guys youll be running for. hiss #abegfreethatissue

the second one... know who u are falling in luff wiv first... dont rush into anything examine the dude properly dont just open leg because u think it ll help in making him like u... most times it doesnt... chill small talk to the fella before jumping only if u want to be burnt if thats the case #abegdecompose hiss...

the third one... if d guy wants to play u too play and dont get emotionally attached i know u may say its not possible it is... very very... make sure u have things dat disgust u about the person in ur mind when u think ur getting there.. and before u get there end it sharp sharp if errthing about the dude invites u and u know he is a bad sumbody. jump off the bridge asap dont start anything...

the fourth option... be a lessy... finish. leave bois alone... finito...

please stop saying guys suck its annoying cuz me 2 I am a guy and i know i dont suck... if boys suck then girls are dumb... finito.

KOMMYTILA HAS SPOKEN... I DONT CARE IF I SHELLED ENGLISH ISNT MY PORTION ITS TORTURE AS AM WRITING IT SEF...

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I LUST AFTER YOU,WILL YOU KICK IT WIV ME THO!

K so kommytila travelled this weekend for a (family friends) graduation u feel me... like a 7hr journey... ROAD TRIP... BUYAKASHA.. BRAP BRAP BRAP KPO KPO KPISHUN KPISHUN GBOSA! yh so I had minor fun as ottawa was boring this weekend but am heading back on wednesday got a visa interview y'all wish me luck.

anyways on my way to ottawa while driving i was thinking... most of d ppl i have dated/been with i never really loved them like that it was more of a sensual sturvinz
(yoruba accent) u feel me... some lust sturvz

anyways so to the main d main of this post...

its really just a question to girls. would yall prefer us telling u d truth, u know tell we seriously and deeply in lo- sorry LUST wiv u... we are crazily attracted to u and thats it.  not sure i passed the question out right but pls ppl get at me...

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I AM 19

okay also in this ottawa trip...

I hate it wen i am been remindig of my age iin a bad way... say during dinner a botle of wine is on the table so i can drink n eat right and then a random someone makes a side comot like "arent the people on "my" table underage"  you get what i mean right.

i know I am a young dude. i tell err1 when i meet them... its not a bigger I am  just 19.

plus i may be just 19. but am sure i have done things in this life most people older havent done or tried doing... this post well was written wiv anger. i really wish u ppl can feel how hard am tapping my keys..

me being just 19 dont mean errthing bout me is just 19. i mean i am not 19 downstairs i can assure you of that. my brain aint 19 eida.  i ve got plans for days. i mean I am kommy konfirmed obasa... but anyways still

P.S.  to the older girls dont try n front if u want to get it... get at me on twitter(konfirmed) facebook(kommy konfirmed obasa) email kanmi@konfirmed.com

Kommytila... signs out. plus sorry forgot to tell y'all I just added a new thing to d konfirmed website. y;all  should check it out if u have any questions or suggestions pictures anything u think can be put there lemme know.

kommytila is a young man with a bright future better get at him now... hiss

for my twitterians #imagine say i dey share $100 for everyone who leaves a comment... lol #WhereDeyDoDatat?

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