Saturday, May 30, 2015

Esoteric

My words to you are not to be considered cryptic or ambiguous neither should my actions or philosophy.

My aim is to pass my message across to you in simple terms.

What do you consider as truth relating to people, yourself, religion and even politics?

Is that that you consider truth true?

For example,
sentences like
"I am a good person."

or
Political campaigns like
"Vote for Change"

Dance To The Tunes Of Perfect Liberty

Let's dance, let's dance to the melody of our ideologies. 
Move left, go straight, conform, jump, think, vote for change, remain the same.

Let's dance to the tunes in our heads.
The thought provoking ideas passed down by those before us.
The ideas of culture, the ideas of conformity, compliance and congruity.

But why dance to the same tunes on and on again?
Do as you please with perfect liberty.
But then again, why listen to the last sentence?

Words, words, words

"Not one idiot knows he's an idiot."
Words, words, and more words, truths, manipulated truths, falsified truths and non-truths; Words said by many who should speak the one true truth.

But variations have been created to please the audience. Even the speakers have become the gullible audience to certain words that can be considered as manipulated truths, falsified truths or non-truths.

For example
 "Things will be better at the end."

Wednesday, February 18, 2015

Valentine's Day: Her Own Side Of The Story

I am a romantic.


It doesn’t always show, and sometimes that’s intentional, but I can’t deny that I am a

hopeless romantic.


Needles to say, Valentines Day is one of my favorite days of the year. Not because of the

gifts, or the chocolate or corny movies, I love the fact that you can feel the love in the air,

that people stop and think of how to make their partner feel special, the anticipation of

how magical an ordinary day can become, the chance to just reflect on the awesomeness

that is your relationship, or how to make it more awesome than it currently is.


So when my boyfriend asked me around September last year what “celebrations” I expect

him to mark, I did not hesitate to say Valentines Day. That I believe was the beginning of

my downfall regarding Valentine's Day.


Since September, this girl had been looking forward to February 14th because she

expected that since she had made it clear that it’s a big deal to her that it was bound to be

the kind of day that only Disney could come up with…and my boyfriend of course. The

fact that I had to work and get my hair done on that day couldn’t get me down; we had

the whole evening to be romantic and all.


Come midnight, I present him with a card and a smile and say happy Valentines Day! He

looked at me funny, smiled then said “happy valentines day”…hmm, well it’s early, I tell

myself, I had to go sleep because of work so no matter. After work, I got home, washed

my hair then went out to get my hair done. Now ladies, allow me to say that I spent quite

a bit of money on the hair (*cough* Peruvian virgin hair grade 7A *cough*) and I

thought it looked nice. I walk in and he comes over to give me a hug and pauses with this

stank look on his face looking at my hair then he says, “umm is this space meant to be

there?” The space here being a part that had moved the wrong way because I wore and

took off my hood, hat head anyone? That was the beginning of his downfall that day.


Still waiting for the magic? Yeah, so was I. Anyway, I had suggested we go see a movie

and he had readily agreed, so we went and that was nice, it was an awesome movie and

we exchanged cutesy glances and stuff at the theatre and even shared a little kiss. Now

the movie started at about 10pm so my hopes of magic had gone down to 0 but I decided

to still have a good night.


Bedtime came and this girl could just not let it go. The conversation started with "What

exactly do you celebrate?"  He thought for a second and said "I celebrate success", I said

"no I mean a certain time/date in the calendar,” he realized I was talking

about Valentine's day so he asked if I wasn’t pleased with how the day went, I said I

wished we celebrated it.


He asked what I expected, and as any woman can tell you, I did not know exactly what I

wanted, I just knew I didn’t get it. So I said, “I dunno, a card, a nice note, something” and

being emotional and all, I proceeded to say our whole relationship could do with a little

more romance…yeah I messed up.


After an uncomfortable and longish discussion, I came to realize that my boyfriend and I

have VERY different definitions of romance, his being more of the I love to take care of

you, I sit in very uncomfortable positions for extended periods of time so you can cuddle

with me romance and mine being the occasional cute card or hand written note, and, dare

I say it, flowers!


My boyfriend being the amazing man that he is, has promised to make every valentines

day from here on out, not like the one that just passed, and I have promised to appreciate

the little things a little more.


Long live Valentines Day!

Sunday, February 15, 2015

Valentine's Day

My girlfriend says our relationship lacks romance, she says that I should send notes and give her cards for Valentine's day.

The conversation started with "What exactly do you celebrate?"  I thought for a second and the first thing that came to my mind was "I celebrate success." She said "No I mean a certain time/date in the calendar."

I realized she was talking about Valentine's day so I asked her if our little Valentine's day charade was not up to par.

She said she wished I celebrated it.

I was stunned for some minutes mainly because I thought the day went on well.

At mid-night, she said Happy Valentine's day and gave me a card and I responded. We went to bed, she woke up and went to work. When she got back I was sleeping, I had a long night the day before. She went to wash her hair, when she was done she kissed me and told me she was going to make her hair.

By the time she got back, I was fully awake and I welcomed her back home. I was excited to see her. She had just made her hair, it was a new look and I knew she would be expecting me to notice it and say something good, BUT, I noticed something odd about the hair and it showed on my face. That I believe was the beginning of my downfall on Valentine's day.

We had guests in the house and we were playing Monopoly, my darling girlfriend was right next to me the whole time. She sneezed a few times and I checked up on her.  Later on I had the chance to sneak away, so I did and I called her upstairs to be alone together. But these past few days she has decided to keep herself busy doing other things with her reason being "I do not want to be idle".

Anyway we had planned to go see a movie, we went to the movie, we enjoyed our movie and we went back home. We went straight upstairs to the bedroom leaving our guests who were comfortable were we left them.

I picked up my laptop having plans to continue writing my novel but I noticed that she seemed a little off, so I dropped my laptop and called her over so we could cuddle and what not. It was then she decided to open up to me.



I admit my failures today as a lover, for not buying a card or a gift. I should have thought of her feelings.

She said our relationship lacks romance and for the span of our relationship I had not shown any romantic gesture.

That hurt, and it hurt deep.  I have always felt everyday should be a day to show your partner that you truly care for them and that you love them. I never believed cards and gifts were measures of ones love.

But since she is my lover and that is part of her standard of measuring love, this post is here to remind me of the oath I have made tonight.

To make every valentines day different from this very one.


Friday, February 13, 2015

Make Me Feel.


Here I am, up before the sun thinking about the way you make me feel.
Pretty lady you make me feel like I've got emotional diarrhea.
I can not control it.
You make me sing songs in the shower,
You make me take long walks for hours
and all I think about is when next I'm going to see you.

Still I have not said how you make me feel,
I can not find the words to say how you make me feel.
But I know I love the feeling you bring.
If I could go back to my younger days I would keep innocence for you my darling.
Each moment I think about what kind of future we may have together.

Sometimes when I'm sitting amongst people or myself I start to blush just thinking about you
It is clear. I am yours. I tried to fight it but you have my heart already and there is nothing I can do about it.
It is... it is clear, it is clear how you make me feel now.

Friday, January 16, 2015

Love, Love.

Each second of every minute.

Every moment and every period.

This day and the next.

When you find a second, minute, moment, period OR  a day to think about the one you call love.

Know the one you call love, is thinking about the one that calls YOU love.

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Je suis helpless romantic.

I'm far from lonely, but here I am feeling the way I felt when I really had no one around.
I've got words to say, but here I am with the words finding their way back inside me.


...
I need someone I can call my own, but all the females around me do not match up to the previous.

I can't settle for less. Well I will not.
That's what I keep telling myself.

Young lady out there looking for a Young helpless romantic.

Je m'appele Kommy.

Saturday, December 7, 2013

Ones


the old "ones" pass...

the new "ones" come...

new "ones" become old...

the old "ones" become the one...

even when there is a new "ones"...

the thought of having more than one "ones" comes...

but a choice has to be made because no matter how the "english" can be said or how the truth can be manipulated to make sense,  more than one, "ones" isnt one any more...

but i stay true to the one...

just me n my one...

we equal one...

KOMMYTILA HAS SPOKEN.

Saturday, November 30, 2013

We say different things.

I will love you till the end of time.

My goodness, you always look so good.

We do not need money to love.

My goodness, I will pay to love you.

I can wait a million years.

My goodness, if I wait another minute I will die.

Why can't you get the drift?

My goodness. Why can't You get the the drift?