Showing posts with label gist. Show all posts
Showing posts with label gist. Show all posts

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Je suis helpless romantic.

I'm far from lonely, but here I am feeling the way I felt when I really had no one around.
I've got words to say, but here I am with the words finding their way back inside me.


...
I need someone I can call my own, but all the females around me do not match up to the previous.

I can't settle for less. Well I will not.
That's what I keep telling myself.

Young lady out there looking for a Young helpless romantic.

Je m'appele Kommy.

Saturday, December 7, 2013

Ones


the old "ones" pass...

the new "ones" come...

new "ones" become old...

the old "ones" become the one...

even when there is a new "ones"...

the thought of having more than one "ones" comes...

but a choice has to be made because no matter how the "english" can be said or how the truth can be manipulated to make sense,  more than one, "ones" isnt one any more...

but i stay true to the one...

just me n my one...

we equal one...

KOMMYTILA HAS SPOKEN.

Saturday, November 30, 2013

We say different things.

I will love you till the end of time.

My goodness, you always look so good.

We do not need money to love.

My goodness, I will pay to love you.

I can wait a million years.

My goodness, if I wait another minute I will die.

Why can't you get the drift?

My goodness. Why can't You get the the drift?

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

Do You, Do The Do-Able.


Heading back home at 7:33pm, Lagos really does seem peaceful tonight, streetlights are on, no traffic, birds are swimming, and pigs are flying. I know what awaits me when I get home. Continuous nagging from the wife who at this point needs a divorce.
Kommytila, do you think I need to remain in the useless marriage? I mean, we got married because she got pregnant for me 8 years ago and the boy she gave birth to, died when he was only four.

DO YOU BOO BOO!


I have been dating this guy now for 2months. We met at a friend’s party and all. He has another girlfriend but he called me his wife and all. He even said he thinks we are both gonna get married. And oh my goodness he has a really huge package, like I think he needs to be a pornstar. But the only sad part is when we do it. I’m like is that it and it hurts all through. Kommytila, what can a girl like me do?

DO YOU BOO BOO!


I am a happily married man, married to a half-caste hottie with four beautiful girls, My first daughter is married to a musician and she has a son for him. He is a member of a twin music group, she is being taken care of properly even though. I would have wanted her to continue her education, my second daughter is beautiful but has no thoughts, plans for tomorrow. She gets back at odd hours of the night. My third daughter just got suspended from high school for putting a male students prick in her mouth and the last girl she is 8 years old, we still sleeps with my wife and I and she still wets the bed. Kommytila, what can be done about my situation?

DO THE DO-ABLE


Shout out to the voices in my head for telling me their problems. May their issues be solved and may they continue to provide me with materials to write.




Friday, August 30, 2013

Le Get Away

They say time heals,
but I still hurt the same.

I came here to... get away.

Its a marvellous night to write.


pa pa rampa pa pa ri pa pa rampa.



what that means, only my spirit knows.




As the words appear, It hurts less by the second.






I'm crying out and I can't do it on my own, I need you.








Wish I could go back, when the magic existed in us, true lovers.


Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Fatima, Fatima, Fatima


I wanted somebody to want me.
I needed somebody to need me.
I wanted somebody to crave me.

Now all my prayers have been answered with a great clause.

Now that I have found someone to call my own, I am faced with trials that may test fate and faith.

Now there is a hurdle in front of me.


How do I jump OR leap over it?



How do I explain to one I believe to be my missing rib that the different religions we both belong to hinder our progress?

HENCE

Will I prevail?


?Which one of us will have to make a huge decision that may affect our eternity


Will I still have someone who wants me?


?Will changing religions make the individual that changes incomplete for the rest of the individuals life


Will I still have someone who craves me?


MY FAIR LADY LETS LIVE IN THE NOW, THE TODAY AND LET TOMORROW HANDLE ITSELF?

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Music And My Love Life.

One of my favorite musicians of all time happens to be Sade
I have secretly pondered on why I like her songs so much.
Well Today I figured it out while listening to Sade's No Ordinary Love.
It reminded me of my high school love, who truly did all she could and I did not reciprocate the love. Her love for me seemed more than ordinary. I just was not ready for it. I felt I could do better than her. I did not want to settle for something I believed to be less. 

At that time in high school Usher was my favorite artist, I appeared to be like a Rake, I attracted females with little or no effort atleast that's what others thought. I was always in a relationship and if it things were not working out I moved on to another. 

Then again, during my low points, I listen to Sade's songs because she always had a lover she was singing for. She always sang about the love she had for him and how she was not going to back down or she sang about how the love her lover gave her was the best. She always made me want to be the lover she sang about. It was then I realized I lost a great love, perhaps my first love. I believe subconsciously I replaced my supposed first love with Sade and her lyrics. 

After a while I realized the females I fell for were always the "romantic type" even if they did not show it. I always found them. They were always the ones who suffered from a serious heartbreak. I always felt it was my responsibility to rescue them, thinking if I can make them love again it will make up for my high school error. But once they fall for me, I leave them with a deeper hole than I met. I leave them in a worse state, simply because my scars are not healed and because the hole in my soul is greater than what they can fill up.

So what did I do? I listened to Sade more. Hoping I will find someone like her or my first love again or someone better. But brrr it never happened. I tried to fill my hole with several cravings, pleasures and fantasies. Yet it remained.

Usher was no longer encouraging to me so I searched for an artist who understood me or an artist whose case was similar to mine.
The Weeknd became a good friend for a while, simply because his songs are indeed sad and he lets the world know about his pain and how he tries to cover them up.
After a long time of being a fan of his, I tried to get out of that phase. I began to search for an artist who was happy and in need of love. That was when I found Wizkid.

Wizkid made me love again, he made me start going out again. His songs gave me encouragement to find a woman to love even if it was for one night. Sadly I never felt true love with any of the women so I went back into a little form of depression. That was when I found Lana Del Rey.

She seemed to be truly happy with her sadness. She seemed like she will stick with her man no matter the weather. It made me feel like I had more hope. Like I did not have to change who I believe I was. 

I'm happy now that there are better songs I can still listen to. But Sade still remains one of them. That on it's own probably means I am still searching.

Sunday, August 26, 2012

From Henry To My Mistress


Verse 1

Perhaps you do not understand
but I cannot sleep. i can hardly breathe, thinking of you.

Your image is before my eyes every waken second

I almost believed that I will sacrifice my Kingdom, for an hour in your arms
I beg you. 
Name someplace that we can meet and when
that I can show you truly an affection which is beyond common affection

Chorus
I'm sorry if I offended you
i did not mean to.
i spoke plainly of my true feelings.

Verse 2

I want to say something to you.
If It pleases you to be my true loyal mistress and friend.
To give yourself surrender yourself body and soul.
I promise, I will take you as my only mistress
I won't have a third or an affection for anyone else
If you agree to be my matrees entree (official mistress)
I promise, I will serve only you.

Chorus
I'm sorry if I offended you
i did not mean to.
i spoke plainly of my true feeling.



I give you leave that we may always speak freely with each other
honestly, openly and with a true heart.
For me that is the true definition of love.


Edited words from Henry

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Let Me Be


What do you want from me
why cant you let me be
i'm not good for you
but you still want me
but cant you see
i cant be with you
'cause of the things i do
i just cant be with you
cause of who i am

So why dont you go away, far away from me
'Cause I will only hurt you while I hurt myself
I am not good alone, and I am not good with you
I have to fix myself before i let you in.
I thought I could fix myself, fixing you. 

you are less than what I want
and I am less than what you need.
so why dont you let me be
What do you want from me
Please let me be
Please let me be

Monday, March 26, 2012

Friday, August 12, 2011

LOVE & INFATUATION

#SoYouInLoveNow because you think bout him/her all day?

#SoYouInLoveNow because you see stars when u kiss?

shit... 

 #SoYouInLoveNow because he/she is your life?

at what point does it become infatuation , or are they the same?

which do u prefer? 

or does infatuation develop into love?

hmmm?


please lecture me people...

Saturday, July 30, 2011

COKE AND FANTA



COCA-COLA AND FANTA: A BEVERAGE DILEMMA

Hello everyone, I find myself in a quandary over the creators of Coca-Cola and Fanta. It's a conundrum of epic proportions that has me questioning my beverage preferences.

We are all familiar with Coca-Cola. It's not as sweet as one might assume, yet it contains more sugar than Fanta. Fanta, on the other hand, is visually appealing. One might assume it's sweeter than Coca-Cola, but it isn't. I'm sure you've noticed that Coca-Cola is more prevalent than Fanta in most places.

When I have Coca-Cola in my fridge, I feel an indescribable affinity for it. It's as if I can't live without it. The same applies to Fanta. Although it's not as ubiquitous as Coca-Cola, when I find it, I want nothing more than to savor it.

However, I currently find myself without either Coca-Cola or Fanta. It feels as if the manufacturers have abandoned me, leaving me feeling desolate and emotionally bereft. I'm left pondering which I desire more - Coca-Cola or Fanta?

As I was trying to make a decision, I noticed Sprite and Burn (the energy drink... so mild yet so strong and wild). This led me to wonder, am I being selfish? Should I choose between Coca-Cola and Fanta, or should I forgo them and opt for Sprite and Burn?

Furthermore, I realized that consuming all these drinks could potentially lead to health issues, such as diabetes.

I'm genuinely perplexed, folks. I'm unsure of how to choose, what to choose, or even what course of action to take.

For now, I've decided not to discriminate. I'll sample all of them and make a final decision based on which one offers the most satisfying taste. Kommytila has spoken.

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

WHAT HAPPENS

What do u do. when you cant get over someone and everytime you see/think bout them you become sad, emotional, depressed...

what happens when you think it will last forever but... wow the end is here...

what happens when you know you cant have the one you wish for...

what happens when the one you want is with anoda person you dislike...

what happens when everything you lay your hand on dies out...

what happens when you really cant understand whats happening...

what happens when you know you have to move on. but  you just cant...

what happens when he/she doesnt call you no more

what happens when he/she doesnt even look at you again (calling is not even an issue)

what happens when you feel like a part of your heart is decomposing...

what happens when you finally think you have moved on ... and then realise you really arent half way.

what happens when the one u love betrays you...

what happens when the one u love keeps hurting you but yet you still want he/she to love you...

what happens...

what happens when one decides to end his/her life because they cant have the one dey desire...

what happens when your gone... will the one u desire think bout you...

what happens...

what happens...

what happens...

wht happens when the one you love begins to disgust you and you begin to hate "the one" but yet still love him/her...

what happens...

what happens when you cant think again...

what happens...

Monday, July 25, 2011

HEARTBREAK.

Yes true.
we always think we like/love/feel the other person in the relationship.
we always feel like it will never end or should i say hope nothing wrong will happen
we put in the best/our very best into our relationship.
we try u know, we really do try.
but... HEARTBREAK ... gbosa. just like that

well most ov us have been heart-broken. some more than others.
is it that we dont try enough to make our relationships work. or is the other person just. ah!!!!!!

there is no point to this post but i am wondering why we break hearts and why we allow our hearts get broken. when we know that at one point ov d relationship it will end... abi. its not as if we marrying the person...

but if we allow ourselves to think like the above paragraph. then relationships wont be ... iono how to explain... wont be DEN DEN DEN DEN...

so I ask what can we do in other to stop heartbreak...
is it really possible.
cuz i feel one person just has to be heart broken...

2 B IN A RELATIONSHIP OR NOT... DECISION SHUD BE-"TO BE HEART-BROKEN OR TO BREAK SUM1S HEART.






Monday, February 28, 2011

Single Life... tired ov it.






k. its been long since i updated... not my fault was enjoying d single life in london town... grrr shout out to my london pplz. david evans, chioma, chiamaka, feyi, demide,...

k. so. i have been enjoying my holday u know... chilling relaxing err thing u know... living the life...

but at this point where err1 around me is u know dating anoda person...

i feel. n believe. its my turn u know. tired ov being single. i need my own u know... even popsy tried to hook me up wiv sum1...
and true the babe was fit. very fit. fine. and she looks very proper u know. wife/girlfriend material.

but ehm.. i live in canada she here in london... am a guy... temptation will come. so... ehm dat wont work. it got me thinking.. u know

i think i need a babe... not just a normal one... some one i can chill wiv and do errthing wiv... some one i can mess infront ov and she do the same and we ll laugh about it.. u know.. not sure u ppl understand me... but

ive been searching... but just avnt found yet. hope i will one day... soon.



single life... very borin
kommytila has spoken

kommy obasa on facebook... if u want to check me out

to find me. just click on kommytila the blogger on the side directly under the konfirmed yarnz badge on the side of this page.

hmmm waiting for ur friend request.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

A Conversation With Fear





Alabi: What is this in my heart?
        My legs can't move
        my lips seem sealed shut
       Even my brain seem to have shut down.
               Now am thinking in my head, what shall I say. Then I say,

Alabi: Who is this?
        Why are you blocking my way?

Fear: I am fear
        and I am here to stay

Alabi: No way
        you can't stay
        this is an important phase
        and you r stopping me from what i would love to embrace

Fear: Sorry this is my place
        and my mission is to satop you from making mistakes
        no matter what it takes

Alabi: Even if it means loosing my stakes?

Fear: well stakes could cost you your pride

Alabi: Thats a good point
        But its pointless if you haven`t tried

Fear: Whats the point of trying
       When you know ur chances are low
        It`s just like playing a lottery

Alabi: I could be lucky you know
       The stakes show good signs

Fear: Ya, they always do
        till you lose

Alabi: Now that you said that
        You leave me with 2 options
        I either go play for the stakes
        or i stay here and waste my break

Fear: Make your choice

Alabi: I go get my stakes

Fear: Remember your pride

Alabi: Fuck my pride
        Damn, it`s already late
        You casued this delay

Fear: I guess my job here is done
        See you some other time

Alabi: I hate him
        See what he`s done
       Am sure he`ll be back again
         Next time I`ll be ready

also written by = anonymous( meaning he doesnt want ppl to know it was him that wrote it)

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Under G Sturvs ......


First of all, Lol at some peoples reasoning skills....you are dating a babe and also claim to be in LOVE wiv her. Her closest and LONGEST friend from childhood has a crush on you and you are fully aware..... instead of atleast letting your girl know, you decide to keep it to yourself even when you know your babe is a jealous one and d kinda babe that has *OPEN-EYE*. Well, u start liking her friend..lol in d process of not wanting to hurt your girl, you both decide to keep it "ON THE LOW"........you take dis babe to shop for a gift for ur girlfriends birthday and then decide to buy her stuff too, DID U THINK UR BABE WONT FIND OUT especially when ur d stingy type??? Anyhow, your babe being an UNDER G expert in the sense that she had been in a lot of relationships sha and had played her cards right all the time but in your case, she decided to keep it real, smh.....lol... O'well, she asked you guys separately and you denied it. just because she loved you too much, she sucked it up oh until ............dis friends best friend started liking you too ..... Now, they both like you .... obviously, one person will want you all to herself and apparently, FOWL NYASH GO OPEN...SHA.... Ur shawty has found out now and Yawa don gas, she has left u....You are welcome to the singles club and Sorry but No Sorry :P U have to start from d scratch and start Toasting again :P
.........~| dont do it with someone close because UR BABE GO CATCH U...If u cant Do Under G... Stick to Commitent or better still, REMAIN SINGLE|~....................

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Imperfections Written by Blesyn.


               whenever I am asked, Blesyn, describe ur Dream Guy, I would always imagine this kinda Will smith, in Christiano Ronaldo's body, with the smile of Mario Lopez,the voice of Majid Micheal, obama's mentality,the wealth of Bill Gates+Jay z+Rick Ross+Donald Trump all mixed together, he must Not snore, he must have some serious dress sense and bla bla bla!!! ohh did i forget he shld be able to sing like Usher,rap like florida, but wen he talks he must sound like my Dad besides there shld be some trey songs or chris brown ish in him!!! now dats a perfect guy!!! lmaooo  i want all these i want in one person??? but thats why its called a Dream right??? ...

I am not perfect, 
so i shldnt expect anything extra ordinary
I don't fail too see the faults of people
so i should always remember that my faults are glaring at others in the face 
I talk about what i see, i joke about the mistakes of people(which is wrong) 
so i shldnt expect people to see my mistakes and say "nahhh lets be quiet"
since i am not a beyonce+alicia keys+keri hilson +michelle obama+ nicki minaj 
i shld not cross ma legs and chill and wait for a will smith +obama+ usher+ etc etc 
but i am not expectin a mr ibu+ sam loco +ukwa all in one man oooo 
sometimes we strive so hard for perfections that  we forget the main aims of  whatever we r doing!!! 
I am blesyn and i am expecting u  just u wiv nothing else added to u.. i will learn to love you the way u are and be contented wiv what i have , that is why i have you.
BLESYN.

Monday, January 10, 2011

Can you date(wife/husband/boyfriend/girlfriend) a fuck buddy?

1st it was LOVE n INFATUATION
then it was When is the right time to leave... well I am heading somewhere with my series of questions...
now the final one.

Can you date a fuck buddy/bootycall e.t.c?

will it last?
when it ends, will y'all still be friends?
is it adviseable to date ur fuck buddy?

after all the comments... on my next post i will link LOVE n INDATUATION, When is the right time to leave? and Can you date a fuck buddy?

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Should I Make A Move?

Short dark hair.

Slim Fit.

Perfect from top to bottom.

sitting right infront of me...

Thinking bout making a move.

also thinking if it will make us any closer...

thinking of dropping the darn weight on my shoulder.

I want you to be mine...

DANG

i keep thinking to my self...

I SHOULD JUST KISS U RIGHT NOW...